10.11.10

3 rio poems



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Copacabana, Sunday Afternoon

Fluid lines of black and white mosaic unfold
Beneath your feet. The Impressionist carpet.
Youngsters in their toy cars, Peruvian
Trinket-sellers, handball players, volley-
Ballers, families, tourists, zero-eyed
Beach bums, surfers, millionaires and paupers
Jockey for space, of which there is no sense of
Shortage. In the midst of this throng, a bunch of
Scruffy orphans fight over popcorn, squabbling
Like miscreant kittens, a whiff of favela,
As though by design. At a bar table drinking
Jugos of some yet-to-be-named fruit, three players
Assess a gun magazine, calibrating
Kill efficiency against aesthetics
Like true collectors, killer nerds. A youth
Shins up a coconut tree, throwing unripe fruit
At his friends, who pose for the camera. This is
The anarchic, democratic colony of
Copacabana, where every face fits, all souls
Are deemed equal.


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Hills

It seems against nature for a city to evolve
In a landscape such as this. Cities seek order,
Evenness, coherence. Instead, Rio surges
Out of the land like a drunken sailor,
All knees and elbows. Tunnels and bridges
Breach the geographical divide; join
The dots. Look up by night and a million
Spots of light speckle hillsides like a childhood
Dream of what the city might be: beach and cliff and
Bay, a home for elves, superstars and errant fairies.


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Bomba

For breakfast a concoction made from
Acai, guarana, peanut, protein, more.
As dense as a Cairngorn fog. Fuel for
Morning, afternoon, night and the month to come.


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8.11.10

24 hours in buenos aires



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I was told by the taxi driver, a taxi driver who I later realised had succeeded in charging me double the going rate for the trip, that Boedo, the barrio where I was staying was the ‘barrio de tango’. I didn’t realise it, but his remark at the start of a flying visit to Buenos Aires presaged a quest to discover whether tango, a slightly anachronistic seeming rhythm in a world of beats and salsa, was more than just a museum piece. Driving down 25 de Mayo, the city’s main artery, with all its billboards and its grandeur, it seemed hard to imagine that this was still a city of immigrants, nostalgic for the motherland, singing sad, lilting songs of loss. A meal in an authentic Italian restaurant, with homemade pasta and pictures of the 2006 Italian world cup winning team on the wall offered a hint that it was out there somewhere, and the next day, the girlfriend and I set off on a haphazard exploration of the city, with the unwitting ambition of discovering if tango was alive and well.

We had started in appropriate fashion. By arguing for most of the night. Finally sleeping near dawn and waking after 11. Sun dappling the windows of our hotel room, suggesting that no matter what the grief might be, it would still be worth our while heading out. If tango is a dance of lazy passion, an understated hysteria denoted by the flick of a leg or a sudden shift of rhythm, then it makes sense that we began the quest in a woozy, desiccated state of mind. Fortified by café au lait and finger sized croissants, we headed out into the back streets with hope in our hearts.



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To begin with we drifted through the leafy streets of Boedo which, save for the odd mural, offered precious little in the way of tango. Admittedly it was far too early for any kind of serious tango activity. (It’s only down in San Telmo they dance for the tourists all day long). After a while, the leafy ‘barrio of tango’ began to give way to a seedier vibe, as we moved from Boedo into Once, which is all warehouses and shops. Our route took us across the train lines into the commercial zone. Suddenly, tranquillity gave way to a feverish shopping street.

In common with every American city, Buenos Aires is a city of immigrants. The majority of Portenos, as the citizens are known, have either Spanish or Italian descendency. But there are also large communities of Germans, Eastern Europeans, Russians etc. The only Porteno I know in London has red hair and the surname Rattagan, his ancestors having come from Ireland. Tango emerged in the early twentieth century on both sides of the Rio Plata, in part as an expression of nostalgia for the motherland. However, the mass influx of Europeans ended over fifty years ago. Their descendents are all Argentines now. Nostalgia for a lost paradise is more of a symbolic than an actual phenomenon. Which is where the bustling activity of Once took on an extra dimension. Because the shoppers and the shopkeepers are all, by and large immigrants. The new immigrants – Bolivians, Ecuadorians, Peruvians, as well as Chinese and even Nigerians, are economic migrants, hoping that the biggest city in the South of the continent will offer a higher standard of living. They have taken over Once, with streets full of Andean restaurants, money changers, any commercial opportunity. Perhaps here is where the modern day tango is most likely to be found. Except for the irony that the Argentines resent these modern day immigrants. They don’t want to integrate them into their culture. Instead, like immigrant communities the world over, they are blamed for rising crime and other social ills. The spirit of tango might exist in Once, but its not a song that’s getting heard.



So we left Once, crossing Avenida Corrientes, heading into Abasto. In a matter of minutes the streets were cobbled and the houses, theatres, garages and pizzerias painted with vivid, floral designs. This seemed more like the traditional image of Buenos Aires, and it came as no surprise to stumble across the home of the greatest tango singer of them all, Carlos Gardel. In his day, before his untimely death in a plane crash in Colombia in 1935, Gardel’s fame took him far from his Rio Plata roots. He was an international superstar, big in Europe and Hollywood. His modest house displays a quote which says that a homemade stew cooked with care tastes better than the finest meal in the finest restaurant in the world. A clip from one of his films shows him waking up in his New York penthouse, with four platinum blondes lying around to whom he promptly croons an appreciative ditty. His house has become an unpretentious shrine, and the spirit of tango flickers throughout Abasto’s pleasant, low-key streets, where some of the houses are painted with lyrics and notes from Gardel’s greatest hits, as well as a stream of Gardel murals on seemingly every corner. (Warhol Gardel; Lichtenstein Gardel, Impressionist Gardel etc.)

However, for all the murals and street art, there’s something of the heritage industry about this veneration of Gardel, who died over sixty years ago. If anything, it seems to imply that the phenomenon has atrophied. A short stroll towards the historic centre of Buenos Aires takes you to the Plaza del Congreso where the offices of the Madres de La Plaza de Mayo are located. The offices of the Madres, which continues to function as an NGO, are open to visitors. On the walls are photos of those who remain disappeared, a quarter century after the fall of the dictatorships and the return to democracy. Rows of faces, captured in the aspic of their seventies haircuts, are testament to a time when, along with its human rights abuses, the nation suffered a period of cultural devastation, its musicians and artists banned or forced into exile. Argentina, along with the other Latin American nations which suffered political repression in the latter half of the twentieth century, has moved on, but the walls are a constant reminder of the lasting scars.

In the Plaza de Mayo itself, there are more reminders, with a demonstration by veterans of the Malvinas. One banner says ‘No more fake veterans’. However, the demonstrators share the square with a christian rock band, and the mood is relaxed. We decide to cut short the expedition and head back to the pension. The search by day was always likely to be fruitless. A hunt for the real spirit of tango has to take place by night.

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A few hours later we made our way to La Boca to see El Fulgor Argentino. The show recounts a hundred years of Argentina’s history, in its own theatre, the Galpon de Catalinas. El Fulgor Argentino has been running for 13 years, with the ending constantly being rewritten. There’s a cast of approximately a hundred – it varies from night to night – made up entirely of local residents from La Boca. This is their theatre. Outside, vast grills serve up chorizo sandwiches, beer and cake. All of which can be taken into the theatre. The audience is a mix of the well-heeled, venturing into the badlands of La Boca, and locals. The theatre’s full and the audience’s enthusiasm grows as the tale unfolds, a mix of satire and music, including comedy tanks and generals, the rich and the poor, culminating in a hundred people on stage singing a rousing finale.

Obviously a show dealing with a hundred years of Argentina’s popular music has to include tango, and there’s one wonderful scene where a series of actors dance with giant puppets, whispering sweet nothings as they do so. But the show also demonstrates how tango would appear to have been displaced, by salsa, rock, pop, you name it. As each new dance craze hits the stage, a lone couple continue to steadfastly dance tango, resisting the tide. If anything El Fulgor Argentino would seem to confirm the fact that tango is nothing more than a museum piece, in a society which now looks both to Europe and the rest of Latin America for its cultural infuences.

It’s midnight by the time the show finishes. There’s one last stop to be made. We flag down a taxi and head back towards the centre. Our destination is La Catedral.



La Catedral is a vast hanger. You climb some stairs and enter a cavernous space, with a bar at the far end. The lighting is subdued. As, at first, seems the atmosphere. It’s gone one in the morning and people are dancing but there are no beats, no flashing lights. Gradually the mesmeric rhythm of the tango starts to get under your skin. On the dance floor, a dozen couples are weaving their way around, lazily changing pace as the music picks up and recedes.

Tables surround the dance floor. They are occupied by a mix of age groups and demographics. Sixty year olds dance with twenty somethings. Domination of the dance moves provides the democratic key to participation. On the sidelines, there’s no pressure to join in. A milonga is an opportunity to observe the dancers’ talent, with no need to make a fool of yourself trying to emulate them. Unless you feel like it.

If one were to say that an atmosphere can be dream-like, then La Catedral would embody this atmosphere. No-one is in a hurry. No-one makes too much noise. The environment is both resolutely contemporary and absolutely timeless. The dancers could have been there for decades, centuries, picking out steps, lurching against one another in a parody of desire, staggering or skipping, graceful swans then, by turns, clumsy swans, all at a time. Here is the pulse of tango, alive and well in Buenos Aires.

Later a singer comes on, a small, fiery woman with a low-key band of four. She sings tangos which the audience knows and tangos which they don’t. The most confident couples join her on the dancefloor, cutting through the space like lasers.

The very word ‘tango’ in English is a strange, almost comical one, an alien sound for an alien dance. This is the music of old Europe, displaced, distorted, disturbed, remade anew for a new continent. In La Catedral, of a night, that time when the dawn is still distant but the night is already old, it’s possible to glean what tango feels like, what tango was and is and always shall be.

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23.10.10

international get together, montevideo

Anibal says he's going to see a friend of his who's Australian. She used to live here and she's back for a while. It's a small party. We walk across town, twenty minutes, from Cordon to Barrio Sur. The Australian lets us in. There's another Australian upstairs, who's her boyfriend, of Greek descendence, an American, a Uruguayan tango dancer, another Uruguayan woman and a Frenchwoman, who's there with the tango dancer. Everyone seems very friendly and they ply me with wine. Because I say I can speak a bit of French, I'm sat next to the Frenchwoman.

When she tells me she's a dancer it doesn't surprise me. She has a dancer's physiognomy, petite features, alert, slightly vulnerable. She speaks some Spanish but not a lot. No English. I speak some French, not a lot. We communicate, as you do. She's only just arrived from Buenos Aires. She met the tango dancer, who's also called Anibal, either last night or the night before. She doesn't know anyone here. Anibal, the tango dancer occasionally holds her hand or strokes her hair. She tells me that she's a tango dancer. In France. She dances tango. So now she's come here, to the Rio Plata, to dance in the milongas of Buenos Aires and Montevideo. She's never been to South America before. It's a kind of pilgrimage. She's goes to the milongas alone and dances.

She didn't like the Portenos much. She found them awkward, stand-offish. I tell her the Uruguayans will be kinder. I ask what prompted her visit, now. She tells me that she's just split up with her partner. A relationship of many years. Her partner, who was also her dance partner. The partner with whom she danced tango. In France. I tell her her story, the story of a tango dancer who goes to the Rio Plata to discover the roots of her dance and at the same time sever the ties of her dance, sounds like a film script. She says someone else has already told her that.

My French dries up. Soon afterwards, she leaves, with Anibal. Anibal the tango dancer. They're heading off to a milonga. I talk to the Australian. Whose parents were Uruguayan. Before they emigrated to Australia. Before they returned to Uruguay. The Australian woman studies child poverty. She'd like to stay in Uruguay, but there aren't any jobs.

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in the pension, buenos aires

It's early evening. The pension, in Boedo, consists of a series of rooms which open out onto a first floor patio. There's a parillada and a settee and pot plants. It's pleasant and all the Gatos hang out there. In the middle of our three rooms is another. A couple have moved in. The man is Spanish. I speak to him for a bit. I tell him I'm English. He calls out to the woman who's inside the room. She comes out. She's wearing a sarong. She's middle aged. She comes from New Zealand. We start speaking. In English. I haven't spoken to anyone in English for weeks. She tells me that she just arrived in Buenos Aires that morning. From New Zealand. She's spent a long time travelling. A very long time. She's on her way to Brazil. Tomorrow she goes to Florianopolis. She's going to hang out on the beach for six weeks. Get drunk and hang out on the beach. She has friends there. I ask if she's been there before. She hasn't. I haven't been there either. She says the friend she's going to see is her ex. He's moved back there. From New Zealand. Moved back to his family. I haven't quite got round to thinking that it's unusual to go and spend six weeks with your ex, but I'm getting there. She tells me she hasn't seen him for over a year. Then she says she's going for their child's birthday. Their child who died. He would have been two. She's brought the ashes. She's going to scatter them in Florianopolis. She's going to stay with her ex and his family for six weeks and hang out on the beach and not do anything.

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18.9.10

random montevideo notes - on knowing a country

You can never really know a country.
You can get to know more of it and more it, but you’ll never really know it.
Just those bits of it it allows you to see.
(This has political connotations).

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random montevideo notes - pinter/ betrayal

Ok, so the play works backwards. It’s radical but it’s not as though it’s never been heard of.

However… who else actually ends their play not at the beginning (nor at the end)… but at the end of the second scene?

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random montevideo notes - the things that are keeping me sane

Harold Pinter.

And

Zombies.

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9.9.10

random montevideo notes - santa rosa

The week before the end of Winter, it returns with a vengeance.
Santa Rosa is the last hurrah of the wet, the cold, the dank, the grey, the dull, the turgid, the hopeless, the desperate Montevideo.
The one people long to leave behind, knowing that Summer will bring something else.
Those who've got through Winter without flu will fall at the Santa Rosa hurdle.

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When the sun flirts with the clouds at the week's end, winking like a naughty teenager, it's met with not so much joy as swathes of relief.
There is life after Santa Rosa.
You'd forgotten but it's coming back.

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4.7.10

the arrow maker who gives birth to a new century

The most extraordinary festival of all those celebrated by the Indians of America was surely the Toxiuh molpilia (the binding of the years) which took place at the end of every century, at the end of a cycle of fifty-two solar years. This was the festival of the new fire... It was the most beautiful, the most tragic, and the most meaningful of festivals, since it took place at the time when, according to the Indians' counting of time, all the stars having completed their cycle, the entire cosmos would begin again the revolution which lead it from the year One Rabbit to another year One Rabbit.

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There was something tragic and dreamlike in that terrifying wait for the end of the world which the Christian Sahagun could not accept, because for him it has the inevitable sense of a damnation: it was, he says, "an invention of the devil so they would renew the pact they had made with him... by plunging them into terror of the end of the world and by making them believe he was prolonging their time and was having mercy on them, by allowing the world to continue."

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The priests then arrived, each one wearing the insignias of his god, and they began to walk slowly, silently, "and they were then called teonenemi, which means, they walk like gods".

Then, at a given moment, a man was sacrificed, enabling the entire universe to continue on its course. They chose a warrior, captured during combat, chosen from among the most courageos, who had to bear, by the date of his birth, the name of his destiny. Born on the first day of the year, he was called xiuhtlanin, he who arrowed the new year. The high priest placed a stick of wood upon his chest and quickly rubbed the tapered stick between his hands, thus producing a spark. When the fire caught "the captive's chest was immediately opened, his heart ripped out and thrown into the fire, which they kept fanning, and then the whole body was consumed in the flames". And all around the people who were waiting in anguish, seeing the fire rise up, "immediately cut their ears with knives, collected their blood and threw it in the direction where the light had appeared"; fire was taken to all parts of the province by runners carrying torches and, says Sahagun, "it was an admirable sight, that multitude of fire in all the villages, so such a degree it seemed to be daylight." The last ceremony of the new fire took place in 1507, according to Sahagun, "they did it in complete solemnity, for the Spanish had not yet come to that land".

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From The Mexican Dream, J.M.G. Le Clezio, p54.

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15.6.10

with regard to the various ages of wo/man

As people age they are inclined to sublimate their disappointments, channeling them into their attitude towards the world. The price they have paid for that which has not been realised is compensated for by moments of capriciousness or pettiness. As though seeking to rediscover the privileges of childhood, before the disappointments of adulthood tarnished childhood's dreams of a promised heaven on earth.

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We are all subject to these whims. The degree to which we allow ourselves to indulge them demarcates the line between our desire to continue becoming an adult, or our inclination to remain a child.

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the whole of the moon

You have to love someone for their flaws (in your perception) as much as their values (in your perception).

Otherwise your love is partial, discriminatory and vulnerable.

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define your terms

You can't write about corruption in a corrupt society, because it doesn't want to know.

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2.4.10

london - montevideo, april 2008

Because all we do as we travel is note or having thing things noted unto us.

The woman flying from LA with her husband and daughter. The husband holding a large object which looks like a ring of fire. On their way to Bucharest. Delayed firstly because an engine hadn't worked and secondly because of the NATO summit. Heading to Bucharest because the fourteen year old daughter is one of the top ten under 15 rhythmic gymnasts in the US. Their hotel in Bucharest is going to cost 30 Euros a night. They are bringing their own sheets. Stay three nights before returning directly to LA.

The assistant as I checked in at the TAM desk at Frankfurt. Who arranged my window seat and then disappeared for ten minutes having seen my baggage was only routed as far as Sao Paulo. Before returning with a sticker which informed that the case would now go as far as Montevideo. Who said with only the barest hint of multilingual irony: I think this is better now.

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22.3.10

funny how these things have a way of coming together

What we watched was a work by Harold Pinter called Betrayal...
'What did you think?' he asked.
'Of the play?'
He nodded as he chewed. I shrugged.
'Good.' I said. 'Pretty good.'
Rodney's expression demanded an explanation.
'Well'. I admitted, 'the truth is I'm not sure I understood it all.'
'I, on the other hand, am sure I didn't understand any of it,' Rodney said after emitting a grunt...'But I fear that's not Wong's fault but Pinter's. I can't remember where I read how he discovered his writing method. The guy was with his wife and he said to her: "Darling, I've got quite a few good scenes written, but they've nothing to do with each other. What should I do?" And his wife answered: "Don't worry: you just put them all together, the critics will take care of explaining what they mean." And it worked: the proof is there's not a single line of Pinter the critics don't understand perfectly.

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Javier Cercas, The Speed of Light

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21.3.10

inside out (2)

Every relationship is also a story.

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What a story reveals is no more the shell of its existence.

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Beneath the shell lurk networks and connections and fears and dreams.

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However, even in the best told of stories, nothing more than the shell can ever be revealed.

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it could quite reasonably be argued that we inhabit -

- A world cursed by the fascism of perfection.

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12.3.10

the tudors

Four eight year olds sit around a table. One has Somali parents. Two have Turkish parents. One has British parents. All are British schoolchildren. They are studying the Tudors. Religion under the Tudors. They've made a poster, with a picture of the Pope hidden beneath the flap. The exercise they are asked to do involves imagining themselves to be a Catholic and then a Protestant firstly in the reign of Mary and then in the reign of Elizabeth 1. Their Catholics express their happiness at being ruled by Mary and their Protestants their relief at being ruled by Elizabeth. Their Catholics express their fear of persecution during the reign of Elizabeth, and the Protestants the fear of persecution under the reign of Mary. When questioned they say that the exercise makes sense, and they like it.

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west london tales 11 - silence

I finish the play that I've been reading. It's gone midnight. The play's about a soldier who comes back from Basra and brings the war with him. I switch the light off. I notice something. I look out of the window, which is placed alongside the bed. The Westway is closed. Not a car passes. A camera flashes in the distance. I realise what it is that I am noticing. It's the first silence I have known in my home in the two and a half years I have lived here. I listen to the sound of my room. It hums. I hear a train go past, and see its lights reflected in the next tower block down. Or perhaps I see the lights and then I hear the train. The room hums. Silence.

Then, even as I am wondering what it might be like to live with silence, or that approximation of silence which the traffic, the traffic which never sleeps, snuffs out; the Westway opens again. Red tail lights drone Westwards. In an instant I forget what the sound of that silence, if that is what it was, felt like. Although the hum remains.

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10.3.10

pelevin on writing; on buddhism; on writing and buddhism

Life is a bitch, and then you die. Death is a bitch, and then you are born. Writing is very much like this, as it is living multiple short lives within your longer one.

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Buddhism seemed to me to be the only religion that didn’t resemble the projection of the Soviet power onto the domain of spirit. It was only much later that I understood that it was exactly the other way around—the Soviet power was an attempt to project the alleged heavenly order onto Earth. Well, Buddhism was totally out of this vicious circle and there was something so strangely compelling and soothing about it.

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http://bombsite.com/issues/79/articles/2481

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5.3.10

cash flow

Money is just an opportunity cost.

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For what you gain from the having of it, you lose from those things you might have gained from the not having of it.

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interchange

It might be said that in order to truly experience the pathos and/ or beauty of living in a big city, you need to be single, and lonely. In which state, every touch of humanity counts at least double.

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Having just crossed the path of the man who works in the BBC courier department at Kings Cross Station, on the down escalator as he passed on the up, a man who I met briefly earlier today for the first and probably last time.

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enfield locked

The exercise was about writing without thinking. Letting the pencil reveal what the mind contains and conceals. Six years olds sighed at the chore, before the classroom was given over to the sound of pencils tacking at paper.

A few days later one of them, a boy called B, told me his dad had been quizzing him. Normally when this happens, his mind goes blank, the more he seeks the answer he's searching for the more it eludes him. This time, he tried not thinking. And to his surprise, he found the answer he was looking for.

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reading and drinking

Reading a novel is not dissimilar to having a conversation with a drunk in the middle of their night.

Saying which:

Reading a novel you don't get on with is like being trapped in the drunk's headlights.

Reading a novel you do get on with is like getting drunk with the world's most entertaining boozer.

The only thing that's certain is that when the dawn comes, the night will end.

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feel the quality

We inhabit a conviction society. The more you convince yourself and others of your worth/ the worth of your idea/ the worth of your conviction, the more successful your integration within this society.

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3.2.10

the devil's in the detail

To be a true artist you need to be conscious of the complete insignificance of your work.

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And learn when you need to fight that insignificance.

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And when you need to accept it.

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